desperate pursuit

today I choose again to find Him, somehow, someway, not in my imagination or my mind’s eye but in the now, the real, the natural expression of life.

I love thinking about a spiritual place that is somehow far better than now but I want to see and know the reality of G-d today. I want to know who He is, who He really is. I want to experience Him in the moments that make up my life. I need to know Him here. I need to experience Him now. I need to know His essence is the answer to all the questions that consume my heart. I may not have the answers, and my heart will still ask many questions, yet somehow, someway day to day compassion, love, chesed faithfulness that is G-d will transform my questions into a place of assurance and utter dependence upon One.