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Not Forgotten, Not Forsaken

Taking a moment away from Abba and little girl’s story.

Surrender

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All you want from me
is everything,
All you desire is that
I give you the core of me,
All that you long for in me
is surrender,
Complete wholehearted trust
in who you are
and who I am in you

Today afresh I surrender,
Today anew I give you my all,
All I am today
and all I hope to become,
I trust you in this place
of uncertainty and lack

Right here, right now
In the questions I trust you,
For you have not brought me this far
to abandon me,
You have not brought me to the mountain
to leave me alone

Pause

The test, the crux
Forgotten, forsaken?
Why so much heartache,
why so much loss
Chosen for this?
The cry of your brethren
How will you answer?
Adonai Eloheinu,
Please answer,
King of the whole earth,
Please answer

Surely you did not save your people
from complete destruction
to leave them alone,
Surely you did not bring them home
to forget them in this dry and weary land

Abba in heaven
Please come
Please answer
Please comfort the heart of Jerusalem
Please comfort the hearts of your people
Please answer the cries deep within
Abba, have mercy
Beautiful one, have mercy

Pause

Today I say yes again
I trust You fully,
Completely,
Wholeheartedly

I give you myself,
my life,
All I am is Yours
for You created me
You made me for Yourself

You are Creator and You are good
There is none like You
No one before You
No one after you

Everlasting Adonai
Who created Jacob,
Beloved Abba
Who formed Israel,
Who redeemed and called Israel by name
And said, You are Mine

Who is like you?
No one
There is not one higher,
Nor one greater
There is not one kinder
Beloved G-d and King

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Tears of Surrender

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“Abba, what’s happening? Why does it seem like you’ve left? Why can’t I find you?” little girl said in a sad quiet tone. She mostly was talking to herself as she stared at the ground, not seeing the fresh green grass or the caterpillar climbing on the top of the highest blade of grass.

“Little girl, were you talking to me?” Abba asked, the soft gentle tone of his voice bringing a peace to little girl’s heart that she didn’t know she’d lost.

“Abba, you’re here!” little girl exclaimed with surprise, “Where were you? I couldn’t find you.”

“I know, sweet girl. I know. I love you so much and I am right here with you. I never left.”

“Really?” Little girl responded with surprise in her voice. “I couldn’t find you. I thought you had something more important to do. I got so scared.”

As little girl said these words the tears began to flow freely down little girl’s face one by one by one. She couldn’t quite comprehend what had happened and why she was so sad.

“I’ll never leave you, my sweet girl. I’ll never forsake you. Do you believe me?” Abba said as he picked her up and held her close, wiping every single tear away.

Little girl buried her head in Abba’s chest and shook her head in acknowledgment of what he had just asked her. “Yes, Abba, I believe you,” she said not wanting to move her head away from his chest.

Little girl wanted to stay right there forever.

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Abba’s Delight

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“Hey little girl, we’re on a journey. Remember?” Abba said to little girl as she stared at the ground, her face downcast.

She looked up at Abba, considering what he had said. “I remember. I do. It’s a journey and you’re with me on this journey. But Abba, can’t it be a little easier?”

Abba looked down at little girl and saw one tear after another slowly falling down her cheeks. He saw her tears and he saw her struggles. Most of all He saw her heart and he knew how much she loved him.

Abba loved little girl so. He delighted in her and he knew she would stay the course with him.


Joy Afresh

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“Abba,” little girl said with joy and even some laughter as she awoke from a dream in which she felt Abba’s love afresh. In little girl’s dream she had been running and playing and swimming, and even surfing in the ocean with Abba.

Abba was standing in the doorway as little girl opened her eyes, realizing she had been dreaming. Abba looked at little girl and his heart overflowed with delight. He loved her so far beyond words or description. He loved his children in a way so few comprehended. As he thought about his little ones, tears began to form in his eyes.

Little girl looked up and saw Abba and realized she had been dreaming. She smiled and jumped out of bed. She ran up to Abba, feeling so much love for him.

“Little girl, how would like to run and play and swim, and maybe even surf in the ocean with me today?” Abba asked her with a glimmer in his eyes. Little girl knew that Abba somehow knew what her dream had been and he also knew what made her heart soar.

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Hey Little Girl

“Hey little girl,” Abba said as little girl stared up at him with a restless look, waiting to hear what he would say to her.

“Be still. Peace is yours, my sweet girl. You have nothing to fear or worry about. I have it all figured out. I’ll tell you when it’s time. Let’s go on a little walk,” with that Abba turned around and began to walk towards the beautiful hills, taking one large step at a time. He would turn around to make sure little girl was following and she did. She was so close behind him almost stepping on the backs of his heels to keep up with him.

“Little girl, I see your heart. This isn’t too difficult. I have a wonderful plan for you. I know you’ve been waiting all this time and wanting all that I have for you. I know. I understand. I remember the time. I won’t forget about you or leave you behind. Just follow me. I have wonderful things in store for you, wonderful things.”

“Are you sure, Abba?” Little girl said quietly, wondering about what Abba had just said and remembering the difficulties of her earlier years.

“Little girl, come here,” Abba spoke these words and picked her up. He held her tightly in his arms once again. Little’s girls tears came down one after another as she let go and let him show her once again how much he loved her.

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Remind Me Again

“Remind me again, Abba, why you love me so much,” little girl spoke confidently as she asked. Little girl was remembering the words of affirmation Abba had spoken to her time and time again. Her heart was beginning to remember the great love he had for her just when she needed it the most.

When little girl felt sad and alone, she thought about the reality of her adoption day and the truth of what Abba had done for her and what he had spoken to her. She reminded herself of who she really was. She recalled who she belonged to. She reminded herself of how far Abba had brought her and how much he loved her.

“I love you because you’re mine. You’re my little girl and I love that you want to be with me and learn from me. I also love that you love me back,” Abba answered little girl with joy in his heart over her life.

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Remembering

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Just when little girl thought it all was too much and she wasn’t sure if she would make it through the terrible storm, a wave of grace came and picked her up. This happened time and time again.

When the tears seemed enough for her to swim in, something shifted and her heart found renewed life. Her heart was renewed as she remembered how much Abba loved her. Her soul found life when she recalled that Abba was her father for good.

When the clouds and the rains seemed to muddle her mind, little girl remembered her adoption day. She remembered how Abba had reassured her of his great love for her time and time again.

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