Little girl woke up with a question on her heart. Little girl often had questions but it was a bit unusual for her to wake up with a question this deep.
“Do you promise, Abba? Do you promise?”
The question kept running around in little girl’s heart and mind upon waking and as she got out of bed. Little girl couldn’t wait to run straight to Abba to tell him about her question. She jumped out of bed and ran to the place Abba sat and waited for her every morning.
“Abba!” little girl said almost breathless, “Do you promise? Abba, do you promise? I can’t quit thinking about it, Abba.”
“Good morning, sweet girl. Come and sit in my lap,” he said as he picked her up and set her in the place on his lap she had found to be the safest and most wonderful place in the whole world.
Once little girl was on his lap, the question faded from her mind. She laid her head on his chest and let her heart be stilled.
“Little girl, I love you so. Forever and ever I’ll love you! I’ve loved you since before you were born. What was your question, my beautiful girl?”
Little girl turned to look up at Abba as he spoke these words that were full of life for little girl’s heart. Upon seeing Abba’s eyes that held eternity inside of them, little girl turned back around and just let herself be held in Abba’s arms where the promise made itself known.
Take your place, my love
Follow after me
Are you weary?
Are you broken?
Are you unsure and insecure?
Come after Me
Run after Me, My love
I never expected you to be ready and righteous
When I came after you
I never expected you to know what I wanted from you
When I chased you down
Run after Me, My beloved, My fair one
Better than life is my love
Better than the finest wine
I await you
I will not tarry
I wait for you
My fairest one
Today, run to me
This day, come to me
My love is better, greater, higher
Than you could ever imagine
The stirrings inside
Moving, waiting, hoping
Tumultuous but calming again
What is coming
What shall come
Expectant I wait
That You still see
You still move
And You’re still answering
A light at my feet
To take a step
But only one step forward
At a time
And my expectation
I wait for You
The One who knows
Me so well
And loves me so completely
and then me
running after me
coming after me
chasing me down
calling out my name
reminding me who I am
of who I belong to
“Daughter,” you said.
I turned around astonished
Almost asking who you were,
as if I didn’t know
Yet that word, that one word caught my heart off guard
“Daughter,” you said again.
“Abba, is that you? Abba Father, is that you?” I said, as if my eyes were blind
and I could not see
In a fatherless world of perfectionism
and survival of my soul
My breath nearly left me
My soul was shaking
I knew this One
I had heard about Him all of my life
And hoped the stories were true
I knew Him
Deep within I knew
“Abba Father, thank God You’re real and You came. You came for me.”
With these words I ran to Him
My heart wide open
into His arms wide open
Full of grief
Hurting so deeply
And angry, so angry
That he had been taken
The father I’d always hoped to get to know left this life
No stable ground
and grief beyond understanding
As it goes
And only You
My Abba Father
Could relieve this suffering
Only you could heal this broken heart
Only you could remove the shame and darkness
That dampened my soul for more years than I wish to recall
You father the fatherless
You comfort the motherless
You answer the cries of the brokenhearted
and you heal the wounded soul
May my life be the song of love I sing back to you
Because you’ve given me life and you’ve been so kind
Gratitude and thanksgiving this day I choose
“Abba, what’s happening? Why does it seem like you’ve left? Why can’t I find you?” little girl said in a sad quiet tone. She mostly was talking to herself as she stared at the ground, not seeing the fresh green grass or the caterpillar climbing on the top of the highest blade of grass.
“Little girl, were you talking to me?” Abba asked, the soft gentle tone of his voice bringing a peace to little girl’s heart that she didn’t know she’d lost.
“Abba, you’re here!” little girl exclaimed with surprise, “Where were you? I couldn’t find you.”
“I know, sweet girl. I know. I love you so much and I am right here with you. I never left.”
“Really?” Little girl responded with surprise in her voice. “I couldn’t find you. I thought you had something more important to do. I got so scared.”
As little girl said these words the tears began to flow freely down little girl’s face one by one by one. She couldn’t quite comprehend what had happened and why she was so sad.
“I’ll never leave you, my sweet girl. I’ll never forsake you. Do you believe me?” Abba said as he picked her up and held her close, wiping every single tear away.
Little girl buried her head in Abba’s chest and shook her head in acknowledgment of what he had just asked her. “Yes, Abba, I believe you,” she said not wanting to move her head away from his chest.
Little girl wanted to stay right there forever.
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“Hey little girl, we’re on a journey. Remember?” Abba said to little girl as she stared at the ground, her face downcast.
She looked up at Abba, considering what he had said. “I remember. I do. It’s a journey and you’re with me on this journey. But Abba, can’t it be a little easier?”
Abba looked down at little girl and saw one tear after another slowly falling down her cheeks. He saw her tears and he saw her struggles. Most of all He saw her heart and he knew how much she loved him.
Abba loved little girl so. He delighted in her and he knew she would stay the course with him.
“Abba,” little girl said with joy and even some laughter as she awoke from a dream in which she felt Abba’s love afresh. In little girl’s dream she had been running and playing and swimming, and even surfing in the ocean with Abba.
Abba was standing in the doorway as little girl opened her eyes, realizing she had been dreaming. Abba looked at little girl and his heart overflowed with delight. He loved her so far beyond words or description. He loved his children in a way so few comprehended. As he thought about his little ones, tears began to form in his eyes.
Little girl looked up and saw Abba and realized she had been dreaming. She smiled and jumped out of bed. She ran up to Abba, feeling so much love for him.
“Little girl, how would like to run and play and swim, and maybe even surf in the ocean with me today?” Abba asked her with a glimmer in his eyes. Little girl knew that Abba somehow knew what her dream had been and he also knew what made her heart soar.
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