aching with G-d – day 10

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Abba’s Heartbeat for Israel

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Today’s Prompt: Care

aching with G-d

The life of an intercessor
Joining with Your heart
Joining with Your prayers

Waiting, watching, hoping, praying
Absolutely lost, finished,
if You do not answer

A life of desperation
and a life of aching with Him
Acutely caring for the things on His heart
The place of the heart being yoked with the only One
Who can take the burden and share His holy longing

Where are the wailing women today?
Where are those whose lives are marked by weeping and tears,
for the sake of the children, for the sake of Your people?

For the hurt of the daughter of my people I am hurt 1
It is the sound of Rachel weeping for her children
because they are no more 2

Abba, awaken our hearts to see and know,
To love and care,
To carry and be carried by You in the deep unto deep of Your heart
and Your burden

Let me be so close to You,
Hidden in Your heart

Share Your heart with me
I want to bridge the gap

Wail, cry, mourn, rejoice,
Agree with You
Bring redemption nigh, Abba
For Israel, Your Son
And for the sake of the whole earth
That You may be satisfied

1 Jeremiah 8:21
2 Jeremiah 31:15

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change our hearts – day 8

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Abba’s Heartbeat for Israel

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change our hearts

Only You can change the heart of man
Only You can change me from the inside out
Only You can make me holy
Only You can visit and bring me life

Abba, this is my authentic cry
Please come speak to those who call on Your name
Abba, make a way for Your people
Help us to enter in
To that which is close to Your heart
Let us enter in to the groanings and longings
On Your heart today

We need You
We desperately do
We need You
We need You
We need You
Please come and visit us
Please come and show us who You really are
We need Your heart
We desire that You give us Your heart
Show us Your deep love for Your people Israel
to whom was give sonship, the Torah, temple service,
Messiah

Abba, Awaken our hearts and draw us into Yours
We want to live out Your love for Your people
Give us Your heart, Your holy living desire
For this one You long for

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A Yom Kippur Prayer – day 4

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I’m veering off course today because it is Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement (Leviticus 16). The Jewish community in every place goes through prayers of repentance asking for forgiveness and atonement on this day every year. I am sharing a prayer of repentance and hope it will resonate and draw you nearer to G-d.

Forgive me for not trusting You
Forgive me for not coming to You on the basis of who You are
Forgive me for not obeying You
Forgive me for not getting up early to hear Your word
Forgive me for running about and busyness
Forgive me for not searching my heart and not searching Your word
but rather searching other’s words to satisfy my soul
Forgive me for doing the very thing I see as weakness and sin in others
Forgive me for trusting in my own ways instead of trusting in You
Forgive me Father, Forgive me Abba

Cleanse me from all unrighteousness, O God
Forgive me for aching for Your Kingdom without living it
Abba, please bridge this gap
Between my holy longing and Your great desire

Forgive me for pleasing myself instead of pleasing You
Forgive me for hatred in my heart and walking in the flesh
Instead of walking in the Spirit from whom I have life

May You find forgiveness and be written in the Book of Life today.

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a tiny flame from an aching heart

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Today’s prompt is:

because

I write
because
I pray
because
I breathe
because
I am

nothing of my own to give
except my heart,
no offering that looks extravagant
just my “yes”
no sacrifice or else I would bring it
just day to day following my Father’s way
nothing drawing attention
of the world
or the peoples
just a tiny flame
from an aching heart
that I willingly offer
to the G-d of my life

this is my offering today
this is my gift of love to You

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is this surrender

I am joining with Kate Motaung for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Hold

Hold,
to secure
to fasten in a safe place
to be kept tightly

My heart beats,
feeling just a bit more alive
in this moment
Because I know He holds me
Every hour, every moment
My lifeline
My G-d holding me
Keeping, Hedging, Holding

I hold on – face like flint
He holds me

Yes, that’s what I say
that’s what I shout

I hold on – won’t turn away
He holds me

Now
When all around
Other voices say
to hold on to every other thing
rather than let go
and let Him hold me
I say, I shout

I hold on – trust
He holds me

No matter what

I hold on – I am Yours, You are mine
He holds me

An intimate word that feels
Your arms wrapped around me

I hold on – crying out, believing
He holds me

A G-d who
Chooses to come and be
to come and dwell

I hold on – is this sweet surrender
He holds me

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A Simple Prayer

Abba,
I think I need to ask You
to help me
again

I think I just won’t
Just can’t
Make it much further
On my own

I fall upon You
I lean into You
I cannot do it
anymore

The same aches
The same loss
Tears at my soul
For the hundredth time
and I can’t seem to
be free

Abba,
I come to You again
I cry out to You again
I need to You
to help me
again

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Abba, please come

Have you ever felt desperate in waiting
The knowledge that if He doesn’t come
There’s no way forward for you

Desperate, pressed beyond measure
Wondering if He’ll ever come

Will You come
You say You will
You said You would
You’ve done it before

O Abba, My Father
I need Your help today
I need Your help more than I did yesterday
I need Your life and Your light and Your hope
to break in and lead Me to the water that is living,
to the rock that is higher

Abba, make a way where there seems to be no way
Abba, make a way for Israel
Where there seems to be no safe place
Find Israel a home in You
Let Israel find their rest in You

Abba, You are good, You are kind
This is not in vain
Let my life and my losses
not be in vain
Let the ache of my heart be satisfied in You
Let the ache of Israel’s heart be satisfied in You

Thank you Abba
You are a good Abba

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