G-d’s Choice – a Prayer – day 12

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Today’s Prompt: Rest

G-d’s Choice – a Prayer

Today I rest, today I wait
patiently, or not so patiently
for You to have Your way in me
You are the beautiful God
with the beautiful heart
and I have nothing to bring that will add anything to the breathtaking reality
that You chose me
You chose me just because You wanted to
I had nothing to bring to this relationship yet You chose me anyway,
For this I am grateful

My life is poured out onto You
My life work is to learn to rest and wait
before You,
to rest in life now that is teeming with forever,
to hope in love pregnant with eternity

May my life breath
whisper, speak, shout
of who You are
Faithful G-d
Magnificent Father
May my heart be bound to You
My life be wrapped up in Your story
My essence be filled with Your breath, Your Spirit

As I wait, watch, hope and pray
May I see Israel’s forever bound with me
May I know we are linked together
May I live with hope awaiting
Your wonderful love
poured out
Transforming hearts, lives, eternities now and all of my days
For You chose Israel like You chose me
Just because You wanted to, You chose Israel
Would You finish this work You started, in Israel
and in me

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Begin Again

I am joining with Lisa Jo Baker for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Begin

To begin again
To start fresh, anew
To look at things differently
To choose life wholeheartedly
To run hard again

Let’s start this race together
In order to finish it together
Take in your surroundings and set your pace
And know that you know
Above all else
He is with you
He is for you
His goodness surrounds you
And will keep you

Choose to set your mind to begin again
The twists and turns of life take us on a journey
We never could have imagined
And never could have prepared for

So when life takes a hard left
Hang on
Choose to trust
He hasn’t forgotten nor forsaken you

His everlasting love
For His firstborn people Israel
Is proof positive
That He is faithful
And He does not lie

G-d bless Israel today in her day of difficulty
And teach us to pray with you
And teach us to trust who you are to Israel
And in this, may we be upheld in our day of testing
As we stand with Israel in hers

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A Prayer for Israel Today

This is the day the Lord has made
Let us rejoice and be glad in it
The above phrase washes over my soul as the Shabbat ends in Israel
Along with the end of Shabbat, is the beginning of rocket fire once again
Because the enemies didn’t agree to allow
More time for the humanitarian aid of their people

Abba, help Your people Israel,
Abba, help the Arab people,
Bring life and hope
Bring deliverance within and without

The enemy surrounding vows Israel’s annihilation
No peace, no life, no desire for the Jewish people to live
When the enemy worships death
There is no possibility for shalom

Mighty G-d of Israel, please fight for Israel
Mighty G-d of Israel, please fight against those who fight against You
Mighty G-d of Israel, have compassion on the people of Israel
Mighty G-d of Israel, rescue lives today

Deliver children today from death and destruction
Deliver children from fear with Your perfect love
May Your Name go forth today
May Your heart be made known to children all throughout Israel,
to Jewish children, to Arab children, to other children,
Make Yourself known
Abba, raise up a generation among the least and make them beloved
and great in Your sight
May these young ones love Your name and love Your Kingdom, beyond understanding

Make Yourself known and pour forth life
Preserve the lives of the young soldiers of Israel
Preserve the lives of the Arab people in Gaza
Preserve the lives of Your people Israel, the Jewish people throughout the Land
Rescue the wicked from the darkness that surrounds and bring Your light
throughout Israel today

May You, the G-d of life and the Giver of life
Bring forth life today
May You, the G-d of Israel
Reveal Yourself as the One G-d, the only G-d,
The righteous One, Holy and true forever

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Running the Race – G-d’s Choice

I am joining with Lisa Jo Baker for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Finish

To choose to begin to run the race,
to follow hard,
to let G-d in and let sin out
What a phenomenal choice
What a beautiful gift
For in all reality, I didn’t choose Him,
Rather, He chose me

He chose me

Let it sink in

The G-d of all creation,
The G-d of the universe,
The G-d of Israel,
The one G-d,
Chose, me!

This is my reason,
my motivation,
my great hope

He is my reason,
my motivation,
my great hope

I choose You back, G-d
I love You so
You are my all and there is no other
There will never be another like You
You began this work
Thank you
You will finish this work
Thank You

There is no other G-d like You
You stand alone
You stand with me in faithfulness when I am weak and misguided
You stand with Israel when she is broken and difficult
You are faithful and there is no other

I thank You that in You and through You and by You
I have been able to run this race
I thank You that in You and through You and by You
I will be able to finish this race

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הסד

the girl I once was

הסד – the grace, favour, mercy of G-d towards humanity

My eyes wander past the parking lot of my local market as I walk out the sliding glass doors. I see swings and slides and monkey bars just a few short steps away. How many times have I walked out these doors and never noticed or paid attention to the sights and sounds of a playground reminding me of days gone by? Today I see the yellow slides. Today I see the blue stairs leading to the top of the castlelike structure. Today I hear the voices of children playing. The bright colors, the multifaceted dimensions, the sounds of laughter draw my attention today, despite the fact that I’ve learned to look past this, and many other playgrounds, to see the more “important” things of life, the things that demand of me rather than invite the girl I once was.

I guess I’ve grown up in measure, yet my experience of that process and the comfortability of supposedly being someone who knows something makes me wonder when I get to grow back down. When can I go back to the place of wonder and questions and taking the moments as they come? And what is my grown up self supposed to look like anyway? A good job, a “stable” life, marriage, kids maybe, go to bed early, get up early, be responsible, too busy for childish things, not enough time to process, no time to pay attention to the dullest whimpers within. Yes, whimpers, weak pathetic cries, unsure if they are being heard, and barely even legitimate cries anymore. Just keep pushing the cries down. If you ignore them long enough, maybe they’ll just go away. If that’s being a grown up, I’m not sure I like it very much. Learning to be just cynical enough to coast through life without being so affected any longer.

I studied and I gained knowledge. I got some letters behind my name, took some vows and tried to take care of grown up things. Yet those cries within, they didn’t stop, they only got louder. As a grown up, I’m supposed to be okay, right? I don’t have time to attend to these cries. I don’t have time or energy for this. I have a life. I don’t have time to break down and not be okay. And besides that, I don’t want to. I don’t want to let go. I don’t want to feel the ache of all those years of loss. I don’t want to. I didn’t grow up for this. And every time I said no to the heartache of the girl I once was, in trade I received another callous layer, helping to cover and protect the wound of her heart.

Unfortunately, some very grown up things had visited the girl I once was before she was grown up. These things eventually tied her hands, bound her and took her captive. The callous over her heart became thicker and thicker. At 17, when her father died and left her for the last time, the little girl I once was seemingly died too.

Thank G-d that’s not the end of the story. Thank G-d.

One day, the girl I once was, her real Abba showed up. He reminded the one who’d taken her captive Whose daughter she was. On that day, Abba demanded her release. She slowly emerged from the place of her captivity, disheveled and sullied. As she lifted her head, she saw her Abba, and the girl I once was came alive again as she realized the One she’d always hoped was real was there, looking at her with delight in His eyes, waiting with open arms for her to run into. As He bent down towards her, she began to weakly run towards Him until He picked her up and whisked her around and then brought her close to Him and held her and hugged her and kissed her head like she knew He always would.

the girl I once was came back to life that day. Thank G-d. She found the home she was always looking for in her Abba’s embrace. I wish I could say the journey to healing and wholeness has been easy and simple since then, but it hasn’t. It’s been grueling and painful yet indescribably beautiful at the same time. Abba came and embraced the girl I once was and I have been working to do the same for years since then. I’ve set my face like flint to choose to let Him give me back all that was lost and to recover the heart of the girl I once was and the girl I am today.

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I live and I pray and I write because His faithful love (חסד) came and rescued me and I know He will do this for Israel because this is what He longs for and this is who He is. His faithful love (חסד) is towards Israel, therefore His faithful love is towards me and all who trust in Him. See Hosea.

never forsaken

forgotten, forsaken
never in You
You created and called forth a people
You loved them
even when they believed You forsook them, You were still so close
even when they believed You forgot them
You said that Your tender affections remembered them still
whether they forget, “I will not forget you,” says G-d to Israel
He says He will not forget
He says, “O Zion, you are engraved into the palms of My hands,
your walls continually before Me”
thus
never forgotten, never forsaken
are you, O Israel

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faithful

when will You come, when will You meet us and help us

see and know You as the G-d of Israel, as the one and true G-d

whose great love for Israel shouts of Your great love for us

Your undeniable faithfulness to Israel speaks of Your faithfulness to me

the deep affection You have for all who are Yours is unlike anything I’ve ever tasted

You are not like man, Your love is greater than, higher than anything I’ve ever known or will ever know in time and space

I love Your love, I love how You love

You are so good, You are so kind

I’m so thankful to be Yours
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