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Will You Heal My Broken Heart?

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“Abba, please help me,” little girl said, looking up at Abba with sorrow in her eyes.

“What’s wrong, little girl? Are you okay?”

Abba knelt down and tenderly picked little girl up. As he picked her up, she held onto him and would not let go. Despite the fears and concerns she still had to overcome, little girl knew Abba was safe and that he loved her very much.

After Abba held little girl tightly for what felt like hours, she asked Abba a question. Little girl spoke quietly, almost a whisper, “Abba, my heart still hurts sometimes even though you’ve helped me so much. Will my heart always hurt?”

“Little girl, I love you beyond words. I care for you and I will heal you fully, completely. Your heart won’t always hurt.” As Abba said these words, tears filled his eyes. He fully understood what little girl had experienced and why her heart felt broken at times and his heart hurt because her heart hurt.

Abba had never been distant from little girl’s experiences and he loved her beyond comprehension.


Abba’s Love – the antidote for fear

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Despite everything Abba had done for little girl and despite her experience of his love for her, she still battled deep fear that Abba would leave her. Little girl’s fears were not evidential on a daily basis but they were very real and very tangible at times to little girl’s heart.

Most mornings little girl woke up and ran to be with Abba. She ran and jumped in his lap without even thinking twice about it. Her heart knew what was true even though her mind sometimes wandered to the past and doubt crept in, causing her to wonder if Abba’s words and love were authentic.

Little girl was mostly convinced of Abba’s love for her but some days she let fear lead her rather than trusting her heart as her heart trusted Abba. Those days were difficult and little girl didn’t like these days. Yet she knew she needed Abba to help her overcome her fears.

One day when this happened, little girl decided to run right to Abba and talk to him about all of it.

“Abba, would you help me if I come talk to you when I’m the most scared. I get so scared sometimes that you might forget me or leave me but you won’t, will you?” Little girl questioned with apprehension in her heart. “I know you won’t leave me but sometimes I just get so scared that you will. I’m sorry.”

As little girl shared, tears welled up in her eyes and began to stream down her rosy cheeks.

Abba knelt down in front of little girl. He caressed her head and wiped each of her cheeks with his hands. Then Abba took both of her hands in his. He looked right in little girl’s eyes and spoke straight to her heart.

“I love you, little girl. I love you so much and I will never leave you and I will never forsake you. I understand you. Please come to me when you’re afraid. I won’t reject you or be upset with you when you’re scared. You’re my little girl. You’re my daughter. I know what you’ve been through and I know everything about you. I know that you love me and that you want to trust me with all of your heart. I know you so well and I delight in you because you’re mine. You’re my little girl and no one can take you away from me. You don’t disappoint me when you’re afraid. You don’t upset me when you get distracted. This is a journey and I love you so much and I will help you. Your fears are not too much for me. I know your heart for me. I know you love me and I know you’ve given me all that you can. You’re my favorite and you’re all mine. Don’t let anyone tell you differently.”

Abba’s words touched little girl’s heart. She felt his love for her when he spoke word after word of affirmation and life to her. His words were like water quenching a thirst. They were like food answering hunger pangs long ignored.

With each word, it Abba’s love overcame the fears in little girl’s heart. She felt so safe with Abba. Her heart filled up with peace and her rosy cheeks beamed with joy as she stared at Abba while the words Abba had spoken began to speak to deep places in little girl’s being.

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Running into Abba’s Love

I am joining with katemotaung.com for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Season

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Little girl and Abba took a walk to the edge of the sea not so far from home. Little girl had seen the sea once in the distance from Abba’s house. You couldn’t really see it unless you looked for it.

Little girl loved the water and was excited it was so near. At the same time, she was a bit afraid of it as well. The waves and water were amazing but overwhelming at times.

“Little girl, do you see that hill over there? The best view of the sea is from the top of that hill,” Abba said as he pointed towards the gorgeous cliff overlooking the sea.

Little girl looked and saw exactly what Abba was talking about. She looked at the cliff and then looked away and buried her face in Abba’s pants. She loved the idea of that beautiful lookout but she was desperately afraid of it at the same time.

Little girl knew this was the beginning of a new season for her. She would face her fears in a way she hadn’t quite done before. This time Abba would be right beside her. She knew she could do it because she knew Abba would help her every step of the way.

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Love Casts Out Fear

I am joining with katemotaung.com for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Weary

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Writing about Encountering Abba’s Heart

Love Casts Out Fear

Little girl sat in Abba’s lap thinking about how glad she was to finally be here again. She had started to become weary as her old fears came up more than usual lately.

Every time she ran to Abba and sat in his lap, her fears ceased. She wished she could simply sit with him all the time so that she would never be overcome by fear again.

As little girl sat in Abba’s lap, it was as if he knew her thoughts.

“Little girl,” Abba said, causing her attention to turn back towards him.

“Yes, Abba,” little girl replied.

“Remember that I told you that you can sit with me anytime you want. You can sit with me all day and all night if you want.”

“Really? So I can sit with you even in the night?” little girl asked inquisitively.

“Of course you can. I’ll hold you and you can sleep,” Abba replied.

Little girl thought about this offer and she decided she would take him up on it. She knew she needed to remember that he was her father and that nothing could change that and that no one could take her away from him.

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Settled

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Settled

Little girl realized she really needed Abba today. She loved being with him everyday but today she knew she needed him. She felt fearful today as she awoke.

Little girl knew Abba wasn’t going to leave nor forget her. Her fear felt very real nonetheless.

She went to sit on Abba’s lap. Abba knew something was wrong. As little girl sat on his lap, he turned her face towards him and began to talk to her.

“I’m Abba. I’m your father now. I will never leave you nor forsake you. You are my little girl and I will protect you. I love you so much more than you know.”

As Abba spoke these words, little girl’s heart began to settle in to the truth and the reality of what these words meant for today and for the rest of her life.

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You are Mine

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Day 17: Offer

Little girl woke up one morning tossing and turning. She dreamt that she had to leave Abba’s house. She awoke filled with fear, wondering what was true.

She ran to find Abba. He was sitting outside watching the sunrise over those hills He remembered so well. He heard little girl steadily approaching. He waited for her to jump into his lap like she did every morning.

She got to him and she stopped short. She stared at the ground beneath her feet. She wouldn’t look up. This saddened Abba’s heart. He quickly got on his knees, picked her up and lifted her eyes to look right into his.

Little girl tried to look away because she felt sadness and then shame at the idea of having to leave. Abba moved her gaze back to his eyes filled with love for her.

“Little girl, I have an offer for you. How about you give me your sadness today and I’ll give you my joy.”

“But do I have to leave?” little girl whispered.

“NEVER,” Abba exclaimed with boldness, “You never have to leave. You are mine forever! I adopted you forever.”

The sadness little girl had been cloaked in lifted and she remembered the day of her adoption and she believed Abba.

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Abba’s Perfect Time

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Writing Every Day for Thirty-One Days
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Day 10: Ready

Little girl could hardly believe everything happening in her life. She loved Abba and he loved her so much and took such good care of her. At just five years old, she had begun to wonder if anyone would ever really care for her.

In the perfect time, Abba came and got her. Just when little girl’s heart had almost quit hoping, he rescued her. The instability and fear and sadness that had begun to overwhelm her sensitive heart hushed when Abba came for her.

Little girl wondered if Abba was any different from any of the others that had said they would care for her. She didn’t express these fears but Abba knew and he wasn’t a bit intimidated by her insecurities.

Abba knew her completely and loved her wholly in the midst of the fears that wanted to trap her and keep her bound. He knew her heart. He knew her deep need to be loved and cared for far more than she did. He comprehended her completely. This was just the beginning of a beautiful journey.

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