Abba Father

and then me

running after me
coming after me
chasing me down

calling out my name
reminding me who I am
of who I belong to

“Daughter,” you said.
I turned around astonished
Almost asking who you were,
as if I didn’t know
Yet that word, that one word caught my heart off guard

“Daughter,” you said again.
“Abba, is that you? Abba Father, is that you?” I said, as if my eyes were blind
and I could not see
In a fatherless world of perfectionism
and survival of my soul
My breath nearly left me
My soul was shaking

I knew this One
I had heard about Him all of my life
And hoped the stories were true
I knew Him
Deep within I knew
“Abba Father, thank God You’re real and You came. You came for me.”
With these words I ran to Him
My heart wide open
into His arms wide open

This daughter
Full of grief
Heart bleeding
Hurting so deeply
And angry, so angry
That he had been taken
The father I’d always hoped to get to know left this life
No stable ground

Loss untold
and grief beyond understanding
As it goes

And only You
Only You
My Abba Father
Could relieve this suffering
Only you could heal this broken heart
Only you could remove the shame and darkness
That dampened my soul for more years than I wish to recall

Abba Father
You father the fatherless
You comfort the motherless
You answer the cries of the brokenhearted
and you heal the wounded soul

Mystery Unimaginable

May my life be the song of love I sing back to you
Because you’ve given me life and you’ve been so kind
Gratitude and thanksgiving this day I choose


In Him



“Little girl,” Abba’s voice got little girl’s attention.

“Yes, Abba,” she answered, a little bit distracted.

“You seem concerned about something. What is it?” Abba investigated the unsettledness He could see in little girl’s countenance.

Little girl looked up into those deep dark brown gentle eyes that seemed like they held the ocean and the mountains and little girl’s past and future in them. In that moment, tears began to well up and slowly fall down her cheeks one by one by one. She realized who He was and how much bigger He was than anything else.

Abba picked her up and held her as all of her fears, concerns and difficulties that had been holding her attention slowly faded and fell away one by one by one.

Shortlink for Sharing: Shalom

For more adventures with Abba and Little Girl check out my other posts, including this link: Abba & Little Girl 31 Days

I am joining with for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.


An Adventure with Abba

father-and-child-version-2 - Version 2

Encountering Abba’s Heart

An Adventure with Abba

Little girl came and found Abba a little bit earlier than usual. She was excited about their day together. Abba had told little girl that they would be going on an adventure. She couldn’t wait to find out what they were going to do.

“Abba, what are we going to do today? I’m so excited,” exclaimed little girl.

“We’re going on an adventure that will help you understand how much I really love you,” Abba replied.

Little girl looked at him with inquisitive eyes. She couldn’t imagine what their adventure was going to be but she trusted him so she grabbed his hand to go wherever he went.

Abba looked down at little girl with those eyes filled with fire and life. His pleasure in her was so far beyond her understanding. Abba loved little girl so much.

Abba loved the journey day after day with little girl and he loved the way she trusted him. Despite everything, she trusted him and she was learning to trust him more and more every single day.

Abba comprehended why this was sometimes difficult for little girl but he had patience with her and knew she would fully overcome her fears one day. He knew that she would comprehend and walk in the perfect love that he had for her one day soon.

Shortlink for Sharing:

For more on Encountering Abba’s Heart, check out my daily posts throughout the month of October.

Abba’s Perfect Time

Abba, I Belong to You 4

Writing Every Day for Thirty-One Days
Encountering Abba’s Heart
Links to each installment can be found here:

Day 10: Ready

Little girl could hardly believe everything happening in her life. She loved Abba and he loved her so much and took such good care of her. At just five years old, she had begun to wonder if anyone would ever really care for her.

In the perfect time, Abba came and got her. Just when little girl’s heart had almost quit hoping, he rescued her. The instability and fear and sadness that had begun to overwhelm her sensitive heart hushed when Abba came for her.

Little girl wondered if Abba was any different from any of the others that had said they would care for her. She didn’t express these fears but Abba knew and he wasn’t a bit intimidated by her insecurities.

Abba knew her completely and loved her wholly in the midst of the fears that wanted to trap her and keep her bound. He knew her heart. He knew her deep need to be loved and cared for far more than she did. He comprehended her completely. This was just the beginning of a beautiful journey.

Shortlink for Sharing:

Joining the 31 Day online writing challenge


Abba’s Visit

I am joining with Kate Motaung for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Abba’s Visit

The little girl daily wondered, “Am I safe? Will everything really be okay?”

She kept being told things were okay but it didn’t feel okay. Would she be safe? She couldn’t stop thinking about this. She was scared and having a very hard time not being scared. No matter what they told her, she had a hard time feeling safe.

Little girl thought and thought about it, “If only I can please mama a little bit more. Maybe then everything would be okay. Yes, that’s it. If I can please mama perfectly, things will be okay.”

The little girl tried and tried to do everything right. It still didn’t seem to work. The storm never seemed to end, until one day.

Little girl was playing a game when mama came up to her in a rage. Mama’s hand was raised. Her right hand was above her head about to come down on the little girl.

Then Abba stepped in, right behind mama and pulled her arm back before it descended on little girl. Abba came just in time and stopped mama in her tracks. That was an amazing day for mama and for little girl.

Mama didn’t know what had happened that day but she never hit little girl again after that. She’d get angry sometimes but she would step back and be able to stop herself from entering the storm of rage that had been her standard response for so many years.

Little girl saw Abba step in that day. Mama just knew something had changed. Something had changed in every way for little girl and mama. Mama began to love little girl and care for her in a way she hadn’t before.

Little girl had hoped in Abba for years. Abba finally came to them. Little girl’s prayers to Abba were answered in just a moment.

Love of G-d

I am joining with Kate Motaung for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

loveofgod - Version 2

love of G-d

What do I have to learn? From yesterday and today? What about tomorrow? What is it You have to say in all the bumps and bruises from today? There is so much to gain in the day to day. There is so much for my heart to take in, yet I often think I have no ability left to receive.

For a moment my soul is captivated by the kindness of who You are. I remember it’s possible.

I then find myself drowning in the ache of disappointment. Just then, You visit me again. Just when I thought I couldn’t handle one more thing, You said that I’d be okay. You said that You’re my Father and You’ll help me. Somehow, despite myself, I believe You. You are so big yet my finite capacity almost paralyzes me at times. You give me the strength to carry on, to take in and embody all that You long to give to me.

Just when my tent pegs feel stretched to the max, You whisper sweetly to my heart, “Just a little more, a little further, just let Me have a little more of you.”

My heart momentarily responds like Job, thinking You ask more than You deserve of me. A moment passes when I realize how preposterous my heart can be in the most critical of moments.

You whisper again, “I love You. I know all of your ways.” My heart crumbles in a puddle of tears on the floor when I hear You. I remember the deal: I give myself to You, You in turn share Your heart with me. I remind myself that this is what I desire and this is what You desire. I remind myself that this will never be easy but it will be the best script anyone could have written for my life.

I remember Your beautiful affections for Your people. I remember Your immeasurable kindnesses towards me. I remember Your pleasure in my life. I am undone. I forget myself and free fall into You. My heart cries out in gratefulness from the deepest places within my being. Thank You Abba.

Desire Transcendent

I am joining with Kate Motaung for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:



Desire Transcendent

A word that fills my heart with joy
because it represents something more, something awesome,
something beautiful that is found within You

What are Your dreams, Abba
What are Your desires
What do I get to do to be a part of all that You have

There is substance found inside of dreams and hope and faith and love
and I want to find this substance
and live with You in the midst of it all

You are beautiful
You are good
and all Your ways are perfect

Your dreams, the plans of Your heart
are always for my good

Your desires, the substance of who You are
and the longings of Your heart
penetrate my being
and fill me with light and life and love

You let me feel what You feel, G-d
You ask me to talk to You
about Your desires, Your longings, the beauty of Your plans,
to bring forth justice, truth and righteousness

You tell me how much You love Your Son,
How much He loves You,
How much You want me to share in this love

This is the dream
the knowledge of the essence of Your heart,
the knowledge of the essence of the affections of the transcendent,
the knowledge of that which is good and righteous and true
that is only found in You

Your heart is good,
You are always good
Your ways always true and righteous

Your ways are higher than mine
Your thoughts greater than mine

You are good and You’ve drawn me into this goodness,
this hope, this dream transcendent
that will bring forth righteousness one day soon