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Tears of Surrender

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“Abba, what’s happening? Why does it seem like you’ve left? Why can’t I find you?” little girl said in a sad quiet tone. She mostly was talking to herself as she stared at the ground, not seeing the fresh green grass or the caterpillar climbing on the top of the highest blade of grass.

“Little girl, were you talking to me?” Abba asked, the soft gentle tone of his voice bringing a peace to little girl’s heart that she didn’t know she’d lost.

“Abba, you’re here!” little girl exclaimed with surprise, “Where were you? I couldn’t find you.”

“I know, sweet girl. I know. I love you so much and I am right here with you. I never left.”

“Really?” Little girl responded with surprise in her voice. “I couldn’t find you. I thought you had something more important to do. I got so scared.”

As little girl said these words the tears began to flow freely down little girl’s face one by one by one. She couldn’t quite comprehend what had happened and why she was so sad.

“I’ll never leave you, my sweet girl. I’ll never forsake you. Do you believe me?” Abba said as he picked her up and held her close, wiping every single tear away.

Little girl buried her head in Abba’s chest and shook her head in acknowledgment of what he had just asked her. “Yes, Abba, I believe you,” she said not wanting to move her head away from his chest.

Little girl wanted to stay right there forever.

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Created for G-d

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There is a heartbeat beating – ba boom, ba boom, ba boom. It is the heartbeat of the creator. It is the heartbeat of the one God. It is the heartbeat of Abba.

There is an ache inside the one and only God who created all things.

He created the molecules that make up the elements within the air that I breathe. He created the raw material that makes up my physical heart that beats and pumps blood and causes me to exist. He created my emotions, my soul, every part of me that feels and desires and wills and wants. This was brought into existence because of his desire. By his will I exist. Every part of my life that speaks, speaks because of his plan and his longing for me.

By his will you exist. You live and breathe and have being because God himself wanted you here. Every living being was created by God. Every person on the earth today, throughout history and for the rest of the existence of humanity was created by God. Whether you love him, you hate him, or you want him not to exist, he made you and he wants you still. You can wish he wasn’t there because of the suffering of your life, but you cannot will him away. He exists and he will always exist. He never did not exist.

All the brilliant thoughts of man are incomparable to the reality that we think because God is. He created and stewarded our minds to think. He fashioned and formed all humanity in his own image. You think because he is. You feel because he is. You live because he wanted you to live. You are a part of his family because he desired you to be. He wanted every human he created to be a part of his family because he is Abba. He is a father in his very essence.

He will continue to exist far beyond my life, your life and the lives of all those yet to be born. All things exist because of him. Everything good exists because of him. The ability to offer your love to him was given by him. The ability to love at all was instilled inside of us by him because we’ve been made like him. He is our creator and he is a father and he is the only one good. Nothing apart from him is good on its own. He gave us the ability to love him. He gave us the intent of heart and the emotions within to love. Love is from God and he loves us as his creation. He wants us to offer ourselves back to him freely in love because of the love he showed to us.

He gave us love, life and the ability to freely choose him. The choice between life and death, good and evil were given by him. Choose to love him. Choose life and good. Choose to follow him all the days of your life.


Your Kindness

Your Kindness

Abba, are You really that kind and that good
Is what You say what You do

How much do You desire that I love You freely,
Without fear
and without shame
How much do You want me to run into You,
into Your arms when I am afraid
when darkness is too close to discern
How much comfort is available in Your heart for me

Abba, G-d of wonder, beautiful Servant
You have awed me with Your love
You have made Yourself known to this heart
that barely believed love was real

Your love, without conditions,
has shaped my heart
Your love has awakened real love
through which life and light can shine

How could I ever express my thankfulness to You
How could I ever give enough
My whole life is at Your dispense
and I make that choice again

For You are my life
You are my source
You are my strength
and You have become my salvation

No one compares
No darkness comprehends
Nothing can come close
to all that You have done for me

You truly are all I have
All my fountains are in You
There is none like You
Not one besides You
You heal and transform
the hearts of men
There is none who removes the blindness of eyes
and the hardness of heart
except You
You alone can soften this heart
You alone can help me see
You alone can heal this life

G-d who is worthy of all praise and thankfulness
G-d who created all things,
by Your will I exist,
for Your pleasure I was created
Therefore, I give it all back to You
I give all I am and all I have back to You

You are my Love,
You are my Life,
You are my Source,
and my Strength
You have become My salvation

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You Know Better

I am joining with Kate Motaung for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Plan

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You Know Better

You have a beautiful, wonderful awesome plan
Even when I’m concerned You’ve forgotten
You are working
You are moving
You are shifting and changing whatever needs
to be shifted and changed
that You can have Your way
that You can be glorified

Abba, You are so good
Your ways are true and righteous altogether
Your plan is perfect

Show me Your ways
again, more
Show me Your heart, your desires
again, more

O how I love You
O how I desire to walk in Your truth,
Your reality
all the days of my life

Thank You for loving me so
Thank You for knowing best
You are a good, good Abba

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a life given

I am joining with Kate Motaung for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Share

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the sweetness of life
the way Abba always intended it to be
goodness in loving one another

sharing my life
sharing my heart
holding nothing back
given for Him alone

when He is my everything
and I’ve surrendered all
all of me is for His glory

all I have is given to give away
all I know is to glorify Him

one G-d
one love
one body
one Messiah
one life
one time
one chance to give
and be given
fully, completely,
wholeheartedly
in love

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