Faithful Abba

Writing Every Day for Thirty-One Days
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Encountering Abba’s Heart

Day 20: Temporary

Little girl laid in bed thinking about her life. She thought about Abba and then she thought back on all the parents and sisters and brothers who had temporarily been in her life before.

Little girl knew this was different. She knew something had changed forever this time. She had been through “transitions” and placements before, sometimes with promises made that were never kept, but this time it was different.

Abba was different. Everything he ever said was truthful and accurate. Every word he spoke was trustworthy and he followed it up with action.

Abba didn’t simply have good intentions. He did what was right and good and true. He was selfless. He gave his all for little girl. He gave his all for his family. His door was always open.

Abba was unique. Little girl’s heart overflowed with love for him as she pondered the beautiful gifts Abba had given her. He loved her in word and deed. He always did what he said he would do.

Abba had been so faithful to little girl and to all his children. He embodied what the best of fathers and the best of mothers only hoped to be.

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His love is enough – day 14

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Abba’s Heartbeat for Israel

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Today’s Prompt: Away

His love is enough

I can’t run away
from You,
From Your unrelenting, persevering love
Your love chases me down
When I’m not sure if anyone’s there
or if anyone cares,
Your love wraps all around me
You bring me to my knees
My heart feels Your mercy
The tears begin to fall
No matter the pain, or darkness,
No matter the anguish I’ve known
Your love reaches me
Your love chases me down

You have a son, Father
Your son is Israel
He cannot, will not get away from Your love
Abba, Father
If Your love is enough for me
Your love is enough
Your love is more than enough for Your beloved Son
Your beautiful one
Abba, may Your lovingkindness that chases me down
Bring Your people near once again
May Your tender mercy fall upon their hearts
May Your beautiful love draw them in
Abba, Your love is enough
For all of Israel’s pain and suffering

Israel, He sees, He knows, He comprehends all your ways
Let Him in again
He will heal Your broken heart
He will comfort your shaken soul
He is enough
And His desire is for you, O Israel
Abba longs that you come home

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G-d’s Choice – a Prayer – day 12

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Abba’s Heartbeat for Israel

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Today’s Prompt: Rest

G-d’s Choice – a Prayer

Today I rest, today I wait
patiently, or not so patiently
for You to have Your way in me
You are the beautiful God
with the beautiful heart
and I have nothing to bring that will add anything to the breathtaking reality
that You chose me
You chose me just because You wanted to
I had nothing to bring to this relationship yet You chose me anyway,
For this I am grateful

My life is poured out onto You
My life work is to learn to rest and wait
before You,
to rest in life now that is teeming with forever,
to hope in love pregnant with eternity

May my life breath
whisper, speak, shout
of who You are
Faithful G-d
Magnificent Father
May my heart be bound to You
My life be wrapped up in Your story
My essence be filled with Your breath, Your Spirit

As I wait, watch, hope and pray
May I see Israel’s forever bound with me
May I know we are linked together
May I live with hope awaiting
Your wonderful love
poured out
Transforming hearts, lives, eternities now and all of my days
For You chose Israel like You chose me
Just because You wanted to, You chose Israel
Would You finish this work You started, in Israel
and in me

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A Prayer for Israel Today

This is the day the Lord has made
Let us rejoice and be glad in it
The above phrase washes over my soul as the Shabbat ends in Israel
Along with the end of Shabbat, is the beginning of rocket fire once again
Because the enemies didn’t agree to allow
More time for the humanitarian aid of their people

Abba, help Your people Israel,
Abba, help the Arab people,
Bring life and hope
Bring deliverance within and without

The enemy surrounding vows Israel’s annihilation
No peace, no life, no desire for the Jewish people to live
When the enemy worships death
There is no possibility for shalom

Mighty G-d of Israel, please fight for Israel
Mighty G-d of Israel, please fight against those who fight against You
Mighty G-d of Israel, have compassion on the people of Israel
Mighty G-d of Israel, rescue lives today

Deliver children today from death and destruction
Deliver children from fear with Your perfect love
May Your Name go forth today
May Your heart be made known to children all throughout Israel,
to Jewish children, to Arab children, to other children,
Make Yourself known
Abba, raise up a generation among the least and make them beloved
and great in Your sight
May these young ones love Your name and love Your Kingdom, beyond understanding

Make Yourself known and pour forth life
Preserve the lives of the young soldiers of Israel
Preserve the lives of the Arab people in Gaza
Preserve the lives of Your people Israel, the Jewish people throughout the Land
Rescue the wicked from the darkness that surrounds and bring Your light
throughout Israel today

May You, the G-d of life and the Giver of life
Bring forth life today
May You, the G-d of Israel
Reveal Yourself as the One G-d, the only G-d,
The righteous One, Holy and true forever

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Running the Race – G-d’s Choice

I am joining with Lisa Jo Baker for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Finish

To choose to begin to run the race,
to follow hard,
to let G-d in and let sin out
What a phenomenal choice
What a beautiful gift
For in all reality, I didn’t choose Him,
Rather, He chose me

He chose me

Let it sink in

The G-d of all creation,
The G-d of the universe,
The G-d of Israel,
The one G-d,
Chose, me!

This is my reason,
my motivation,
my great hope

He is my reason,
my motivation,
my great hope

I choose You back, G-d
I love You so
You are my all and there is no other
There will never be another like You
You began this work
Thank you
You will finish this work
Thank You

There is no other G-d like You
You stand alone
You stand with me in faithfulness when I am weak and misguided
You stand with Israel when she is broken and difficult
You are faithful and there is no other

I thank You that in You and through You and by You
I have been able to run this race
I thank You that in You and through You and by You
I will be able to finish this race

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Five Minute Friday

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I am joining with Lisa Jo Baker for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes about a word. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Today’s prompt is:

Grateful

I am grateful for You,
My G-d, My King
My Abba, My Husband,
My Saviour, My Friend

You are My Beloved and I am Yours

If I wrote every minute of every hour of every day
for the rest of my life
I could not say enough
of how beautiful You are
and how grateful I am
that You came for me
I could not express
how deeply thankful I am that
You, the Perfect One
reached down to
me, the Broken one
and whispered life into
the deepest caverns of my soul

All of the expressions and songs of love
could never adequately tell of
who You’ve become to me

You are the One I’ve always wanted

You are the One who kept me
when all seemed lost
You are the One who rescued me
when darkness was closing in
You are the One who swept me up
in the depths of love, real love
for the first time in my life
You are the One who knew me
in my mother’s womb
You are the One who set me apart
for Yourself
You are the One who gave my life meaning
when I did not know You
You had my life written on the palms of Your hands
And You made sure
I would be here today, saying,
“I love You, My Beloved, My Friend”
Because how else could I respond to such a gift of love

In You I move and breathe and have my being
Thank You,
G-d of life who gave me life
Thank You

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הסד

the girl I once was

הסד – the grace, favour, mercy of G-d towards humanity

My eyes wander past the parking lot of my local market as I walk out the sliding glass doors. I see swings and slides and monkey bars just a few short steps away. How many times have I walked out these doors and never noticed or paid attention to the sights and sounds of a playground reminding me of days gone by? Today I see the yellow slides. Today I see the blue stairs leading to the top of the castlelike structure. Today I hear the voices of children playing. The bright colors, the multifaceted dimensions, the sounds of laughter draw my attention today, despite the fact that I’ve learned to look past this, and many other playgrounds, to see the more “important” things of life, the things that demand of me rather than invite the girl I once was.

I guess I’ve grown up in measure, yet my experience of that process and the comfortability of supposedly being someone who knows something makes me wonder when I get to grow back down. When can I go back to the place of wonder and questions and taking the moments as they come? And what is my grown up self supposed to look like anyway? A good job, a “stable” life, marriage, kids maybe, go to bed early, get up early, be responsible, too busy for childish things, not enough time to process, no time to pay attention to the dullest whimpers within. Yes, whimpers, weak pathetic cries, unsure if they are being heard, and barely even legitimate cries anymore. Just keep pushing the cries down. If you ignore them long enough, maybe they’ll just go away. If that’s being a grown up, I’m not sure I like it very much. Learning to be just cynical enough to coast through life without being so affected any longer.

I studied and I gained knowledge. I got some letters behind my name, took some vows and tried to take care of grown up things. Yet those cries within, they didn’t stop, they only got louder. As a grown up, I’m supposed to be okay, right? I don’t have time to attend to these cries. I don’t have time or energy for this. I have a life. I don’t have time to break down and not be okay. And besides that, I don’t want to. I don’t want to let go. I don’t want to feel the ache of all those years of loss. I don’t want to. I didn’t grow up for this. And every time I said no to the heartache of the girl I once was, in trade I received another callous layer, helping to cover and protect the wound of her heart.

Unfortunately, some very grown up things had visited the girl I once was before she was grown up. These things eventually tied her hands, bound her and took her captive. The callous over her heart became thicker and thicker. At 17, when her father died and left her for the last time, the little girl I once was seemingly died too.

Thank G-d that’s not the end of the story. Thank G-d.

One day, the girl I once was, her real Abba showed up. He reminded the one who’d taken her captive Whose daughter she was. On that day, Abba demanded her release. She slowly emerged from the place of her captivity, disheveled and sullied. As she lifted her head, she saw her Abba, and the girl I once was came alive again as she realized the One she’d always hoped was real was there, looking at her with delight in His eyes, waiting with open arms for her to run into. As He bent down towards her, she began to weakly run towards Him until He picked her up and whisked her around and then brought her close to Him and held her and hugged her and kissed her head like she knew He always would.

the girl I once was came back to life that day. Thank G-d. She found the home she was always looking for in her Abba’s embrace. I wish I could say the journey to healing and wholeness has been easy and simple since then, but it hasn’t. It’s been grueling and painful yet indescribably beautiful at the same time. Abba came and embraced the girl I once was and I have been working to do the same for years since then. I’ve set my face like flint to choose to let Him give me back all that was lost and to recover the heart of the girl I once was and the girl I am today.

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I live and I pray and I write because His faithful love (חסד) came and rescued me and I know He will do this for Israel because this is what He longs for and this is who He is. His faithful love (חסד) is towards Israel, therefore His faithful love is towards me and all who trust in Him. See Hosea.